This is one of the saddest things I've read. I try to imagine what would
make me kill myself over some guy..well,what do I know about love.
BOLLYWOOD Actress Jiah Khan
committed suicide recently and its been proven she killed herself
because of emotional trauma she faced in her relationship with her boyfriend who has just been arrested. He was also the last person she called before committing suicide...
Read Jiah Khan’s letter to her boyfriend Suraj (Actor Aditya Pancholi’s son) before death...‘I don’t know how to say this to you but I might as well now as I have
nothing to lose. I’ve already lost everything. If you’re reading this I
might have already left or about to leave. I am broken inside. You may
not have known this but you affected me deeply to a point where I lost
myself in loving you. Yet you tortured me everyday.
When I first met you I was driven, ambitious and disciplined. Then I
fell for you, a love I thought would bring out the best in me. I don’t
know why destiny brought us together. After all the pain, the rape, the
abuse, the torture I have seen previously I didn’t deserve this. I
didn’t see any love or commitment from you. I just became increasingly
scared that you would hurt me mentally or physically. Your life was
about partying and women. Mine was you and my work. If I stay here I
will crave you and miss you. So I am kissing my 10-year
career and dreams goodbye. I never told you but I received a message
about you. About you cheating on me. I chose to ignore it, decided to
trust you. You embarrassed me. I never went out, I never went with
anyone else.
I am a loyal person. I never met anyone with Karthik I just wanted you
to feel how you make me feel constantly. No other woman will give you as
much as I did or love you as much as I did. I can write that in my
blood. Things were looking up for me here, but is it worth it when you
constantly feel the pain of heartbreak when the person you love wants to
abuse you or threatens to hit you or cheats on you telling other girls
they are beautiful or throws you out of their house when you have no where to go
and you’ve come to them out of love or when they lie to your face or
they make you chase after them in their car. Or disrespects their
family. You never even met my sister.
I bought your sister presents. You tore my soul. I have no reason to
breathe anymore. All I wanted was love. I did everything for you. I was
working for us. But you were never my partner. My future is destroyed my happiness snatched away from me. I always wished the best for you, was ready to invest what little money I had in your betterment.
You never appreciated my love, Kicked me in the face. I have no
confidence or self esteem left, whatever talent whatever ambition you
took it all away. You destroyed my life. It hurt me so much that I
waited for you for ten days and you didn’t bother buying me something.
The Goa trip was my birthday present
but even after you cheated I still spent on you. I aborted our baby
when it hurt me deeply. You destroyed my Christmas and my birthday
dinner when I came back. When I tried my hardest to make your birthday
special. You chose to be away from me on Valentines Day. You promised me
once we made it to one year we would get engaged. All you want in life is partying, your women and your selfish motives.
All I wanted was you and my happiness you took both away from me. I spent money
on you selflessly you would throw in my face. When I would cry for you.
I have nothing left in this world to live for after this. I wish you
had loved me like I loved you. I dreamt of our future. I dreamt of our
success. I leave this place with nothing but broken dreams and empty
promises. All I want now is to go
to sleep and never wake up again. I am nothing. I had everything. I
felt so alone even while with you. You made me feel alone and
vulnerable. I am so much more than this’.
